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I thought I would post some more as I have time until I go out with a good friend of mine. These past few months have been going by VERY fast. I feel like my truck. Once the turbo spooled, it went off like a rocket. And now I feel like I have hit top end and I am slowly winding down....

This past month with Rachel has been....awsome! I have seen her in a very different light than before. She is very articulate but random. Funny but also very emotional. Energetic but also sometimes very tired. All she seems (read it again) to do is run, run, run. Me, I take breaths in between runs. I like being a little laid back. Now how do I reach a happy medium? Something to work out with her.

Now to do a acronym.....

One thing I notice I lack in is COMMUNICATION. I have found out certain word phrases do not agree with her, as in, she freaks out. Is he going to dump me? What did I do wrong this time? He must not like me anymore... Oh dear.....I also notice that what I see and what I meant to say are 2 different things. She can see through most of it but not always. I pray God will give me a better tongue to speak more clearly.

I have also notice that I am trying to be HUMBLED by God. Why do I deserve such a wonderful young lady? Or my friends? Or my Pastor and spiritual leaders? I also try to hit what I think are problems head on only to find out, I goofed.  I pray I will be a will lump of clay to be molded by Him who has a Plan for me. Now, to find out what that plan is....

I am finding I am being ENCOURAGED by friends and family. They are encouraging me to find out God's plan for me and, some day, my wife. What is His plan? Well their prayers seem to be being answered one day and revelation at a time. A new came to me today, a old ambition. Brought on by a sense of smell at work....!!!! God work in VERY mysterious ways.

SUPPLICATION..... A very big word but one that I am doing constantly to God. What is His plan for me? Why am I restless to just drop my job and go into full time ministry? Why can I not seem to build up savings but am being led to go to Moody Bible?

I am being led into a life of SERVITUDE. I love serving but I feel like I could never be in a position of much leadership. I can lead but only if there is a higher authority to report to. Making final decisions is not my best thing but yet, when I am married, I know I  will have BIG decisions to make. And yet, I am perfectly happy to do what someone else asks me as long as it does not convict me of my moral and ethics.

So what is His plan? I don't know but I waiting to for Him to reveal it to me.

Signing out,

Jon